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Full Week Ahead May 16, 2009

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Things are still going crazy here.  Next we have something on the calendar every day during the week.  More field trips for the children, a doctor’s appointment for Son, and even an entrance exam for me.

That’s right, an entrance exam.  I haven’t been in school for more years than I care to share, so I am a bit concerned.  However, much pressure was relieved when they told me that I can take it as many times as I want and it won’t effect anything until I start taking certain classes.  Yay!

So, if you think of me on Wednesday morning, pray for my dusty brain to try to remember how to do stuff that I wasn’t in class for when it was taught.

….I think I just caused more stress for myself with that statement.

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Movie, No Movie May 12, 2009

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I like going to the movie theater.  I enjoy it.  Usually.  There are times when it is not as fun as it could be.  For example, there may be uncomfortable seats or rude co-viewers.  Overall, though, it is something I like to do.

This weekend, I put going to the movies on my to-do list. There are a few films out that have caught my eye.  Not all of them are family friendly however. Therefore, picking and choosing I must take into consideration more than what my “want” is.  This is not uncommon since I often live the life of a married-single-parent.  I sit through movies that I would not if I were alone.  I sit through movies that I want to see, but think the child/ren would enjoy too.  Rare is the moment where I go to a movie because I alone want to see the movie.  And when that does happen, it is usually because somehow I got away, alone, without any specific reason or prior plans.

There is a movie out that I alone wanted to see.  I think it will be okay for my children to see, too.  There may be a may be a scene or two where we all close our eyes, but overall, I from what I hear, it will be an okay movie for us.

Saturday, Daughter spent the night at a friend’s house.  Son and I went to the movies.  We both wanted to see one that I did not think would be suitable for Daughter.  Add to that, she has little to no background in the X Men series, I thought there might also be a lot of questions.  Questions are good, but not during a movie without a pause button.

Anyhow, Son and I took this opportunity to watch the movie we both wanted to see.  I had enough money (especially since we didn’t spend much at the concession stand) to see another movie.  When Son finds out which movie, he is not pleased. He did not want to see it.  I could have pushed the issue.  I could have made him.  I did not think it was worth it and let him win that one. I mean, I wanted to have a nice time. I did not want to sit next to a sulky teenager.  He said the series, when he use to watch it, became boring. Boring?!? I told him that I have heard good feedback on the movie. He still had no interest in it.

It was kind of late. I was also a bit tired. So, as I said, I let him win.  We did not watch it.

Of course, when I got home I pulled up movie trailers to see if they would spark his interest.  I think we watched 3 of them.  Still no real interest, but a maybe.

Sunday after church, times did not work out well for our schedule.  So, Daughter, Son, and I did not make it then either.  I tried though. I worked around my “need to do” in my head with the length of the movie and the times it was showing.  Nope.  It was not going to happen that Sunday.   I was disappointed.  I mean, after all, aaaaallll the other mother’s got to do what they wanted!   Okay, probably not, but what kind of pity party doesn’t serve a dish of exaggeration?

Moving on.

Monday rolls around and I try to put the movie out of my mind.  There is no day time showing and the evening showings won’t work with our schedule.

So what happens next?  Well, yesterday Son came home from school and said “Mom, I want to go see Star Trek.  I hear it’s awesome!”
WHAT?!?!  I reminded him that he was told that my friends gave it good reviews.
“Yeah, but you didn’t say it was awesome.”

Gah!!  I told him that he just likes to be contrary as I was swatting at him.  He just laughed and asked “Can we go tonight?”

*sigh*  Teenagers!

Mealtime Temptation May 2, 2009

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I started a new diet this week.  Really, it’s not a bad thing.  I’ve probably eaten more on this “diet” than I would have had I not been on the diet.  I’m definitely eating healthier.

However, about a week ago I went to the store. I purchased some ingredients for a dinner I had in mind.  Well, I ended up not making that dinner until tonight.  THAT was hard because it is not something I ate.  I had to serve it to the children and eat my own food.  Again, not that my own food is bad, it’s not.  It’s just, well I was so looking forward to the other that it was difficult to not even take a nibble.

Anyhow, it’s all good.  Plus, Son just finished off the Ben & Jerry’s.  That means, the real temptation has been removed…

…That is, until I make supper for them tomorrow night.

Do you ever diet?
If you do, what is the biggest challenge you face when you are dieting?

Wintery Mix January 26, 2009

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I hear the sleet as it collides with the frozen ground.  I hear the ice as it falls against my house.  I think of the cold, the slippery roads, those who must be out on such nights.  Police men.  Emergency workers. The homeless.

My mind is taken off my thought as my son laughs.  He is happy tonight.  He is spending time with my husband.  The man he calls “Dad”.  This is his second full night home this year.  He arrived back home around 2:30 am, Sunday morning.  My son laughs some more.

The tink-tink of ice falling from the sky plays on like a symphony.   Frozen rain against an assortment of surfaces, near and distant.  Heavy then light.  Music that chills one to the bone should they dare to dawn near to the sound.

I think of my daughter, who is asleep in the other room.  She is warm under her electric blanket.  She is warm with thoughts of my husband being home, keeping her safe. She goes to sleep with a smile on her face.

There is no school tomorrow.  The roads are not safe; the children should be kept safe.  The teacher will sleep in tomorrow.  They will sleep in as the world freezes around them.  Should the sun appear through the rain, the frozen rain, the world will shine around the teacher’s home.  Around my home.

Crystals.  Frozen crystals will hang from roof tops, from car doors, from window units and bird houses.  Branches and windshields, slick with shine.  Tink. Tink. Tink.  Distant and near.

Some where, far far away, ice on the ground is but a dream.  As the heat of summer beats down on them, their world heats up.  While my world is shutting down.  Shutting down only for a moment.

The moment seems long to me.  Days.
In reality, days is but a small moment in time.

My eyes grow heavy as I type.  The laughter winds down.  Soon my son will be in bed, safe and snug.  He too will fall asleep with a smile on his face. Content with the knowledge of his dad being home.  In the morning, he will sleep in. He will sleep while the world turns white out side his window.

Soon I too will fall asleep. I will sleep to the sound of ice falling all around this house.  I will thank my sweet Jesus for the roof over my head that I so complain about.  I thank my sweet Lord for seeing to my needs as I crawl into bed and under my blankets.

And my heart goes out to those who long for such comforts.

I will sleep.
Tink. Tink. Tink.

Sleet Wintery Mix
photo taken from my front door

Cautious or Paranoid January 15, 2009

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I’ve been thinking (which might explain my headaches).  Many of the people on blogs – and twitter, facebook, myspace, Vimeo, etc – are not overly cautious.  I mean, they share pictures, movies, names, and locations.  They make themselves easy to find.  They are very open about themselves.

I use “net-names”.  I am fairly vague about where I live.  On this blog I post no family photos.  On the family blog, I have the pictures altered so that you can’t really see faces.  I’m very open about myself here, but still careful to not let (most) others know exactly who I am.

I have a loosened up a bit. I actually entered a contest – and won.  That meant I had to give my address to have something mailed to me.   I also participated in a swap/barter.  Again, that meant exchanging addresses.  There is no way I would have done this even a year ago.

Am I paranoid?  Are most people just not cautious enough?

One family that I know (okay, I read their blog so I feel like I know them, but don’t actually know them know them) opens their home up to many of their readers.  Wow!  At first I thought they were just crazy living on the edge.  Then I thought about this:  I almost went to meet a group of net friends recently.  I also may have one of my net-friends coming to my area for a visit this year.  But, that’s different.  I mean, we talk on the phone! …… Okay, so it’s the same thing.  Or is it?

If I were to send a message to the “open-house-family” saying I would be in their area, would they offer their home to me?

I heard a message recently (as in last night) and thought about them.
This isn’t my study blog so I won’t go deep into this, but part of the Scripture read was Matt 25:35
“for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in;”

( NKJV )

At the same time though, we do have common sense.  Where is the line?  When do you offer to let someone come into your home?  At what point will you be willing to stay at someone else’s home?  Where is the line between caution and faith?  When is it common sense and when is it paranoia?

Just because someone is open about their life and family does mean they should open their home.  Where is the line of caution when it comes to showing and telling things online?

So many young people put so much out there that not only put them in danger now, but could effect them in ways they can’t comprehend now.  And so many proud parents share so much about their lives and location, it scares me for them.

Am I just overly cautious?  Is everyone else too open?  Am I paranoid without realizing it?  Or am I just using common sense?  Internet safety?

Hmm. Something to think about…

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Where do you stand on this issue?  And why?

Pity Party December 11, 2008

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I think it’s all starting to get to me.  Although, it could just be hormones.
There is no reason for it to get to me. I mean, up until now we’ve been provided for, so why would we not be now?  Maybe I’m tired of living on the edge of… of… of having my children grow up too fast.

I don’t mind living on a beach some place, or in my car, or house skipping for a while when I don’t have little people depending on me.  I’m tired of this kind of uncertainty (No, we are not doing those things now. I mean the uncertainty of if we will have to move out from not paying rent and that sort of thing).  I’m tired of living like this and raising my children like this. I mean, I am grateful for the roof over our heads (even if I don’t sound like it right now) and that our needs are met. I really am.  Still though, I wish for a more complete house.  I wish for more financial stability.  Not necessarily wealth (though that would be nice), but stability.  Security.

I guess I turned into a typical girl who actually wants stability.  Things really change when you have children.  I mean, before my 13 year old was born I had more of a “I’ll land where I fall” attitude.  When things got tough, I just stopped buying food. No big deal.  I could do without.  That goes away when you want to give “better” to your children.

I’ve had money, I’ve been poor, and I’ve been in-between.  Poor is hardest when you’re not alone.

It’s also getting to me that I wasn’t worried about Christmas.  I had put a little away every month and hid some away from the tax return – not much because we had to live off it after Hub’s stroke – for Christmas.  Now, it’s all used up.  What was put away every month was used to get Hubby to work.  Then what was hid away was used for insurance and fuel (so I could drive the children to school) and a few needed items (house hold and hygiene needs along with a few very cheep staple groceries).

I’m broke. There is no more.  And although God has pulled through in some unbelievable ways – checks in the mail as things come due, edible food from unexpected sources, and coats being mailed to us for the children from a friend as a Christmas gift for example- I’m still breaking here.  The cracks are starting to leak.

The job that I took Hubby to hasn’t provided the first check yet.  It is also slow there, so when we do get a check I don’t expect it to be much.  Did I mention it’s also a former employer that he owes money to?

I could go off on choices he’s made, but I’ll just regret it later.  I chose to say yes, now I deal with the lessons he still has to learn.  Maybe I am missing my own lesson here?

The water bill was due yesterday.  We still have the all utilities for this month due plus insurance again at the end of the month.  I ran out of popcorn – which was my lunch for days.  I am getting tired of egg sandwiches. The weekend is just around the corner so I’ll need to figure out breakfast and lunch for the children for those days.  Probably potatoes for lunch and oatmeal for breakfast.  Can you say starch?  Carb?  Why are these foods so cheap?  Why aren’t fresh fruits and veggies as cheap as noodles?

I’m whining now, aren’t I?  Maybe I just need a big tub of ice cream and an unexpected tax-free huge lump sum of money.  Yeah, me and probably a billion other people too, right?

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Edit:
Just after typing the above entry, I called the pharmacist.  Son has one dose left of his medicine. I needed to find out what, if anything, would happen if he suddenly stopped taking it (some medications you have to be weaned off and I was not sure if that one would fall into that category or not.)  He asked if Son was having a problem with medication.  I explained, frankly, that I did not have the co-pay for the state funded insurance that covers the medication. (Which I might add, is a story in of it’s self.) The pharmacist said to come get the medication. He literally (I saw him) paid for the medication out of his own pocket.
In another words, even in the midst of my whining, my God is STILL taking care of our needs.  Amazing.

Ouch! December 2, 2008

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Daughter has a broken toe, as I have mentioned.  She is on crutches.

Today, Daughter fell OUT of the school bus.  She landed on her side.  She hit her toe, scraped her hands and knee, and is bruised on her outter left thigh up and around to her back side.

I was on the opposite side of the road. I saw her falling and splatting on the ground.  I did the mother gasp.  You know the one where in .001 of a second you see all the possible injures and your heart skips a few beats before it races.  Yeah, that one.

She tried not to cry, yet she was visibly upset.  Can you blame her?
The tears fell once she reached me.  The driver asked if she was okay.

Did I mention as she splat the school bus rolled forward a inch or two?
Maybe he (the driver) gasped too or got ready to jump up.  I don’t know. I just know that added more to the flash of possible things to happen.

She’s taking a warm bath right now.  Me?  I’m thankful that she’s okay.  A bit bruised, sore, and maybe embarrassed and frustrated with crutches, but over all, she’s okay.

Serious Reminder November 15, 2008

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I love getting comments. I really do.  It’s almost as exciting as watching the little stat counter roller coaster.

(Okay, stop talking about how sad that is, would ya?  This is actually going somewhere.)

Recently someone left a comment on one of my spider posts.  So, I wandered over to check out their blog.  (I do that when there is a link. Do you?) The first post I read was a great reminder.  As a matter of a fact, I am posting it here so you can check it out.

The internet, the new babysitter?

I read a lot of good post on good topics by good bloggers.  Rarely though do I link to a post just for the post itself.  I might link because I’m responding to it, inspired by it, stealing it (like MeMes not like plagiarism) or something of the sort.  However, this I am linking because you need to read it.  As a parent, you need to read it.  As a teen who thinks it’s okay to just friend anyone, maybe you should read it too and understand “what the big deal is” (The big deal is people like “Bob”).

Thank you, Narcissus, for being on the ball and shoving our parental wrongs in our face for the sake of our children.

Now if you’ll all excuse me, I need to go look at my children’s computer history.

Dis-gust-ing August 4, 2008

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Disgusting.

That is what teenage boys are.

Disgusting.

Set Up: *Son takes a piece of “pig ear alternative” off a corner and puts it in his mouth*

Son: Better than dog treat. Not too bad actually.
Me: *make face and almost gag*
Son: I’ll go over here so you don’t have to see…

The enigmatic “they” were right when THEY said “Teenagers will eat anything!”

Eewww

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A few minutes later…
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Son: Is that yummy? *directed towards dog who is eating the rest of the ear*
Dog:
Son: I thought so too.

Again…. EEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!

The End of Day Five July 25, 2008

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The children have made it home safely.

Technically, we have all made it home safely.

Daughter is already asleep and Son will soon be asleep as well.

Oddly enough, I think I’m going to head off to sleep soon too. I’m worn out and I didn’t even go to camp!!

….Before I go though….

I just wanted to add that at our very late supper (we didn’t get home until late from picking them up) had no complaints. Wait, let me rephrase that statement. There were no complaints voiced. Someone had a stack of food (yes, the food was literally stacked) and made claims of being full. Someone said something “tastes strange”. When asked if that was a compliment, a quick “Yes” was given. I think Hubby almost burst out laughing there.

Yup, Mom (that would be me) is done with complaints at meal time.